For those of you that do not know, 29 year old gaming YouTuber Etika has been missing since Wednesday, June 19, 2019. He uploaded a video on the same day around 12 am (which was around 10 pm my time here in Idaho) that was titled "I'm Sorry". Gamer Rob Breslau (also known as Slasher on Twitter) uploaded an excerpt of the original video here in tweet he posted a few days ago shortly after Etika's original video was published onto YouTube.
The original video has been flagged and has been removed; however, you can see the video on various platforms. YouTube continues to remove the video, but the video is being relentlessly uploaded to the platform by fans and friends who share deep concern for the YouTube star.
After watching the video, I truly believe he has committed suicide. As much as I don't want to entertain this theory, there was something about his eyes and what he said that made me believe he was going to do something to end his life.
For instance, he said, "I was mentally troubled and far too stone headed to admit it, far too stubborn to face it and far too scared to deal with it." He then said, "as far as I know, there is no life after death. My time ends now, but there is a way for me too. I'll send you all as many blessings as I can from the other side."
I've had a friend end her life who used the same language, especially the terms "other side" which makes me believe that he did, in fact, end his own life. He talked about the other side a lot towards the end of the video. And he is mysteriously missing hence why I believe he lost his battle. As he was modestly active on social media, it isn't like him to just go and make this kind of video and end up missing for days after with no explanation.
I literally fear the worst.
It is currently Saturday night here, early Sunday morning. If you know about Etika's whereabouts, please contact the local authorities immediately.