Gaming YouTuber Etika found dead

RIP Etika
(May 1990-June 2019)

It is official, Desmond Amofa (also known as Etika) has been found dead. The NYPD took to Twitter to make the sad announcement a little bit ago to share the news. I really wanted all of the speculation I had regarding his disappearance to just be nothing more than speculation, but today it became a tragic reality. 

And after watching his video, I am 100% certain he took his own life. This is quite possibly one of the most tragic deaths of 2019 simply because when he was filming, no one could have possibly known nor imagined the battle he was fighting. 

In the end, he lost his battle. 

Mental illness is very much real and it is should never be mocked as being fictitious. If you are suffering from depression, anxiety and are contemplating suicide, please reach out to me. If you are struggling and battling with the thought of ending your life, you are not alone as there are millions of people just like you. You are not crazy, so don't think you are. And remember your life is too valuable and is worth more than you think. 

Do not hesitate to contact the following numbers:

1-800-273-TALK (8255) if you live here in the United States
1-800-456-4566 if you live in Canada
09127181037 if you live in Iran
914066202000 if you live in India
116123 if you live in the United Kingdom
1201 if you live in Israel
7621602 if you live in Egypt
0145394000 if you live in France
08001110111 if you live in Germany
8-800-200-01-22 if you live in Russia
020220060 if you live in Sweden
70201201 if you live in Denmark
3541717 if you live in Iceland
010190071 if you live in Finland
9611564 if you live in Lebanon 
717003717 if you live in Spain
18886289454 if you live in Mexico
(54-11) 4758-2554 if you live in Argentina
55512112888 if you live in Brazil 
5323481449 if you live in Cuba
131114 if you live in Australia
(09) 5222999 if you live in New Zealand
116123 if you live in Ireland
2538194 if you live in Armenia
1:058 if you live in the Ukraine
0800801200 if you live in Romania
014833888 if you live in Croatia
09000113 if you live in The Netherlands 
116123 if you live in Norway
106 if you live in Belgium 
112 if you live in Iraq
114 if you live in Haiti
115 if you live in Pakistan 
126 if you live in Estonia
142 if you live in Austria
143 if you live in Switzerland
179 if you live in Malta
08008101117 if you live in China
0357740992 if you live in Japan
09295473143 if you live in the Philippines 
14045 if you live in Indonesia
27800567567 if you live in South Africa
3911270 if you live in Botswana

If I forgot a country, I apologize. I am actually at work and don't have the time to do thorough research, so I will just update this when I get home. 

Rest in Peace Etika. 

Gaming YouTuber Etika is Missing

For those of you that do not know, 29 year old gaming YouTuber Etika has been missing since Wednesday, June 19, 2019. He uploaded a video on the same day around 12 am (which was around 10 pm my time here in Idaho) that was titled "I'm Sorry". Gamer Rob Breslau (also known as Slasher on Twitter) uploaded an excerpt of the original video here in tweet he posted a few days ago shortly after Etika's original video was published onto YouTube. 

The original video has been flagged and has been removed; however, you can see the video on various platforms. YouTube continues to remove the video, but the video is being relentlessly uploaded to the platform by fans and friends who share deep concern for the YouTube star. 

After watching the video, I truly believe he has committed suicide. As much as I don't want to entertain this theory, there was something about his eyes and what he said that made me believe he was going to do something to end his life. 

For instance, he said, "I was mentally troubled and far too stone headed to admit it, far too stubborn to face it and far too scared to deal with it." He then said, "as far as I know, there is no life after death. My time ends now, but there is a way for me too. I'll send you all as many blessings as I can from the other side." 

I've had a friend end her life who used the same language, especially the terms "other side" which makes me believe that he did, in fact, end his own life. He talked about the other side a lot towards the end of the video. And he is mysteriously missing hence why I believe he lost his battle. As he was modestly active on social media, it isn't like him to just go and make this kind of video and end up missing for days after with no explanation.  

I literally fear the worst. 

It is currently Saturday night here, early Sunday morning. If you know about Etika's whereabouts, please contact the local authorities immediately. 

The TRUTH about Jaclyn Hill lipsticks

Jaclyn Hill's lipstick from Jaclyn Cosmetics.
(Photo by Jaclyn Cosmetics)

Have you ever been so excited about something only to be disappointed once you received it? Not only was I wholeheartedly excited to try the new Jaclyn Hill lipsticks from Jaclyn Cosmetics, as I absolutely adore Jaclyn Hill, but wanted to support her brand as her products were some of the most anticipated makeup products to launch this year. Plus, the packaging is amazing. Especially for the $18 price point. But, what is the real truth about Jaclyn Hill's lipstick? 

Her lipstick is terrible.

First and foremost, the formula is awful. In my many years of using lipstick, I have never used a lipstick that both crystallized and oxidized on my lips. This was so uncomfortable on my lips, I felt like I was immediately using a defective product that was sitting in a box on a shelf for years. 

Only one of the lipsticks had weird fibers and debri on it. Almost reminded me of lint from an old clothing dryer. I have no idea why she would release these lipsticks and still extremely baffled as to why she would. Two of the other ones had weird discoloration forming at the base. I want to guess mold. Only one of them had nothing wrong with it. 

Another thing that I found to be modestly revolting was the smell of these. The scent of this lipstick just reminds me of old lipstick sitting on a shelf in an abandoned lab. I felt like I was using a lip product sitting on a shelf for years. I don't like the smell of old lipstick and would never want to put anything on my lips that smelled like it. 

The only good things that I have to say about this lipstick is the shade range. I love the nude concept, as I love wearing nude and pink shades more so than reds and plums, etc. The packaging is also bank and really gives the lipstick a much higher quality than what it is really worth. 

I will still continue to support Jaclyn Hill and I am hoping that she fixes this problem. Based on reading other reviews, I am not the only one who has had this experience. As much as I want to recommend these lipsticks, I simply cannot. Perhaps she needs to pull every single lipstick she has and restart from scratch. And if the manufacturer doesn't fix this problematic issue, I would go with another manufacturer. I believe this wasn't her fault, but more so the lab's fault and I hoping for a positive resolve in a near future. With that said, I would purchase these again only if the formula was changed. 

Playing Zombie Mode on PUBG Mobile

I really love playing PUBG Mobile. And recently, I have been really enjoying the zombie mode inspired by Resident Evil. Currently, there are two Evo modes available in PUBG Mobile. The classic mode is Survive Til Dawn which was the original zombie mode for PUBG. The newest addition is Darkest Night.

As both can be fun, I truly love Survive Til Dawn. This is what I am playing at the moment. My record is 100 zombie kills although I am sure I can do better. Killing players is also fun in this mode. 

My current guns are the UMP9 (or Heckler and Koch UMP) and the AKM, which I am using in this particular match. And as you can see I am out of bullets for my AKM, which requires caliber 7.62 mm. Do you think the combat knife will save me? One thing is certain, the UMP9 is one of the most underrated guns to exist. At least, in my opinion. 

Tonight, I have a squad made up of players GrimCode, JayThePlumber, UrJustPractice and myself - Golpari. UrJustPractice died early on and GrimCode eventually lost to zombies. JayThePlumber is still alive, but seems to be quite a few meters away. Hopefully I can win this one, whether with this squad member or solo. 

If you haven't played PUBG, you truly need to. It's fun and takes you on quite a journey. Definitely one of the best games I have ever played on my phone. 

National Veggie Burger Day 2019

Thanks to the power of plants, veggie burgers have been made possible to consume on a regular basis. What started as an idea turned into reality for Amy's Kitchen, when the world renowned vegetarian brand started "National Veggie Burger Day" back in 2017. Veggie burgers have such an incredible impact on the environment and much healthier than their carnivore counterparts. 

According to Cowspiracy, growing crops to feed animals killed for food not only consumes almost 60% of water in the United States, but contaminates the water also. Additionally one hamburger alone requires almost 700 gallons of water to produce. 

And according to an article published from the book Water Resources and Industry in 2013 on Science Direct, animal agriculture is responsible for up to 33% of fresh water consumption. As 70% of the planet is made up of water, only 3% is fresh. 

So the real question remains, is it possible to enjoy a plant-based rendition of this carnivore classic? Absolutely. I think the pictures I've shared, of the veggie burgers I've made speak for themselves. 

To celebrate today, I ask and encourage all of you to eat and enjoy a veggie burger. From my house to your house - Happy National Veggie Burger Day!

Happy Memorial Day 2019

Today we acknowledge, recognize and honor those soldiers who have stood for us, fought for us and died for us. After all, if you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything. These soldiers stood for the United States of America. 

Whether you have served in the United States Army, the United States Marines, the United States Navy, the United States Air Force or the United States Coast Guard--thank you for serving the land of the free and the home of the brave. 

Some of those wonderful members of our military who are no longer with us and died in 2019 include: 

January

Chief Warrant Officer to Jonathan Farmer (age 37) of Boynton Beach, Florida (January 16, 2019)
Navy Chief Cryptologic Technician (Interpretive) Shannon Kent (age 35) of Pine Plains, New York (January 16, 2019)
Sgt. Cameron Meddock (age 26) of Spearman, Texas (January 17, 2019)
Sgt. 1st Class: Joshua "Zach" Beale (age 32) of Carrollton, Virginia (January 22, 2019)

March

Spc. Jackson Johnson (age 20) of Hillsboro, Missouri (March 7, 2019)
Sgt. Holli Bolinski (age 37) of Pinkneyville, Illinois (March 7, 2019)
Sgt. 1st Class: Will D. Lindsay (age 33) of Cortez, Colorado (March 22, 2019)
Spc. Joseph P. Collette (age 29) of Lancaster, Ohio (March 22, 2019)

April

CpL Robert Hendriks (age 25) of Locust Valley, New York (April 8, 2019)
Sgt. Benjamin Hines (age 31) of York, Pennsylvania (April 8, 2019)
Staff Sgt. Christopher Slutman (age 43) of Newark, Delaware (April 8, 2019)
Staff Sgt. Albert J. Miller (age 24) of Richmond, New Hampshire (April 19, 2019) 
Spc. Ryan Riley (age 22) of Richmond, Kentucky (April 20, 2019)
Spc. Michael T. Osario (age 20) of Horseshoe Bend, Idaho (April 23, 2019)
Pfc. Michael A. Thomason (age 28) of Lincoln Park, Michigan (April 29, 2019)

May 

Spc. Miguel L. Holmes (age 22) of Hinesville, Georgia (May 2, 2019)

As a proud American who loves her country--I salute you. And today at 3 pm on behalf of the National Remembrance Act, I will stop and remember what you have done for my country and myself. I express my love for my country and those of you who support America when singing National Anthem. 

Thank you to everyone who has served in the United Armed Forces. God Bless The USA.

Happy Memorial Day!

Anniversary party + update on my life

Me tonight.

Tonight is a very special night for my boss as he celebrates his anniversary married to his lovely wife of 30 years. He is having an anniversary party tonight, which is quite exciting. I have been invited so I am going to go. As many of you are aware, I have been dating Sumit for almost a year now. Our anniversary is coming up in a couple days (Tuesday, May 28th) which will mark one year. And Sumit, if you are reading this - I love you.

As for my life, I started attending gemstone therapy sessions once a week. I love gemstone therapy because it promotes physical, mental, emotional and spiritual healing. After one session I felt balanced, more calm and relaxed; however, after going for several weeks I really notice a change. The stress I felt for weeks has been completely alleviated and I feel incredibly calm as a result. 

In ancient history, gemstones had a lot of great healing powers. Some of the mummies in ancient Egypt were buried with Quartz. Not only were they used as a sign of luck, but they were used to heal a human's mind, body, soul, and spirit. This was a very holistic way to relieve any kind of pain and eliminate negative energy from the body by promoting positive harmony and eliminating stress. As a result, you will feel less mad, less sad and will enjoy life to the fullest. I recommend this to virtually everyone. It truly does work and after one session you will definitely feel more balanced and calm. 

A lot of you have asked me to stop talking about Morgan Ingram and start talking more about other subjects. My blog is filled with a variety of subjects. Because I support Toni Ingram, I am misinterpreted as one who is "crazy" and "delusional" as well as, one who is a horrible writer, who is being paid by Toni Ingram (yawn) yet you internet stalkers come to my blog relentlessly and read what I have to say. Some of you may disagree with me, but at the end of the day, you come to my blog for a reason. I will be talking about more topics in the near future.   

On a softer note, tonight I am wearing a green bandage dress courtesy of Hot Miami Styles. My jewelry is from Totaram. I did my usual skin care regimen which consists of a hydrating cleanser, an exfoliator, a serum and a moisturizer. Right now I am really loving the Chuda Exfoliating Cleanser, the La Prairie Skin Caviar Luxe Cream and the EMK Beverly Hills Bloom Toner. I am sure I am leaving out others, but will get to those in a future blog post.

For my makeup tonight, I applied the Japonesque Velvet Touch Primer followed by the Jeffree Star Magic Concealer in the shade in C12.  Then, I applied the Jane Iredale Liquid Minerals A Foundation in the shade Satin followed by the Estee Lauder Set. Blur. Finish Perfecting Pressed Powder in Translucent. I contoured my face using the Mehron Illusion Palette by Mimi Choi. I never use this usually for contouring, but surprisingly love it. 

On my eyes, I used the Eyeko 'I Do' Liquid Eyeliner followed the Giorgio Armani Beauty Liquid Eye Tint in the shades 37 Scarab and 25 Midnight Cruise. To highlight I used Ellis Faas Lights in the shade E302. For my brows, I used the Benefit Cosmetics Goof Proof Eyebrow Pencil in the shade 5. And for my lashes, I used several coats of the Benefit Cosmetics BADgal BANG! Voluminizing Mascara. 

To finish my makeup look, I used the Tarteist Creamy Matte Lip Paint in the shade Namaste. I topped my lips with Jeffree Star Cosmetics Lip Ammo in Galaxy Gold. To complete the entire look, I sprayed MAC Prep + Prime Fix+. 

For my hair, I shampooed using the Pai-Shau Replenishing Hair Cleanser and conditioned using the Paul Mitchell MarulaOil Rare Oil Replenishing Conditioner. Then, I did a full blow-out using the T3 Featherweight Compact Dryer and EcoTools Ultimate Air Dryer Hair Brush. Before drying, I applied the Nexxus Promend. After drying, I applied the Matrix Biolage Hair Gelee. 

Tonight I am surprising my boss and his wife with a 28 Can Rolling Picnic Camping Cooler. It is one of the greatest gifts you can give anyone, especially those who travel often. Road tripping will become much more savvy and fun with one of these. My first gift choice was a drone, but then I realized he said they had quite a few of them. 

I am sure I can write more, but then again I would be here for hours and I have to be there in several minutes. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day, as I hope you are all having an amazing weekend.